| another good one by them |
[30 Aug 2006|01:44pm] |
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Rain:Breaking Benjamin |
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is it you i want or just the notion of your heart to wrap around
so i can find my way around
safe to say from here your getting closer now
we are never sad cause we are not allowed to be
rain rain go away come again another day
all the world is waiting for the sun
::Breaking Benjamin
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| time ticks to fast for me to control |
[20 Aug 2006|01:23pm] |
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Looking at you through the glass; Stone Sour |
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Starting this at 1:23
I sit here with only 21 hours left of my summer. Not days I'm down to hours. And I spend the good part of this evening, working it.
This summer was good, but it could of been better. I spent good time with true friends, and falling more in love. But I believe that more could of happened.
At graduation it was scray facing "reality" but little did we think that it wouldn't hit most of us until now.
And I am not ready.And it's pathetic because I'm only signed up for two classes. It's extermly stressful thinking about how I will have to balance things out. Working, School, time for school work, and keeping in touch.
* Ashley left last sunday, and I missed her that day. Amber and I went up Thursday to see her. We had a really good time. It's weird to think that we're already making time in our schedule's to visit one another while they're away, and not seeing them everyday at High school.
*Amber leaves Tuesday, a day ealier then when she would of, and I probably won't be able to see her. Joe and I met up with her and Owen yesterday for a nice lunch, but I don't like the thought that settles in the back of my throat that she's leaving sooner then I thought, and would like. But she has to go.
I'll miss them both more then I thought I would. I will definitely make time to go up there and see them both. They are probably the only two people from our graduating class that I'll really work on keeping in touch with.
* I guess there would be one more person in this category, but she has yet to make a true effort with me, and I don't want to waste my time with un anwsered phone calls, and plans falling through because she craves attention from someone else. Whatever the strands that lead to the frienship that are still attached are beginning to grow cold.
I guess I'll end it here, and spend the rest of my day preparing for the first day of preparing the rest of my life.
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| what to do what to do |
[05 Jul 2006|10:58am] |
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Alright my birthday is this friday and I still
Have no Idea what i want to do...
I was thinking, like whoever wants to come out to the lake
we could do that?
I always have dinner with my family, so that's a given,
but I want to do something afterwords too...
Grrr why doesn't anyone ever plan something for my birthday?
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| FINALLY! |
[03 Jul 2006|11:15am] |
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My 18th Birthday= This FRIDAY!!!!
Stoked!!!
I have no idea what I'm doing...
but stilll....
super excited!!!
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| Common Conversations with that boy I love |
[27 Jun 2006|01:28pm] |
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Days of our Lives |
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Joe: Alright I'll give ya some options
Me: Options….okay
Joe: okay, option A…we uh play a game
Me: A game?
Joe: Yeah a game. But a fun one
Me:um okay
Joe: Option B we watch a movie.
Option C….we uh get abducted by aliens and visit planet Pluto
Me: Aliens…you realize your screwed if I pick that option right?!
Joe: Uh crap… actually yeah the aliens just called and they said that we can't visit Pluto this evening.
Me: This evening!!!
--silence
Joe: Yeah
--more silence
Joe: So…what option do you pick?
Me: Option C
Joe: nooooo
Joe: ahhh oh no!
Me: what?
Joe: My hands stuck…
Me: Where's it stuck?
Joe: in my bed.
Me: What?!!
Joe: Yeah I've got this like triangular thingy and…it won't come out!!!
Me: laughing
Joe: oh my god…my hands starting to freak
Me: your hand!
Joe: it's claustrophobic
Me: Your hand!
Joe: oh my god I can stick it further in but I cant pull it out!
Me: uh..
Joe: IT'S STUCK AT MY WRIST!
Me: well stop pushing it further in.
Joe: I can't get it out!
Wait do you think butter would help…I can't get the butter!!
Me: If you can get it in you can get it out.
Joe:-freaking out
Me: Laughing
Joe: I…I…I…can't get it ou….oh ha-ha
Me: you got it out?
Joe: I was making a fist and couldn't pull it through
-Dumbass :P
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| silently depressed |
[19 Jun 2006|09:27pm] |
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Far away~nickelback |
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This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there’s just one left
‘Cause you know,
you know, you know
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
and you’ll never go
Stop breathing if
I don’t see you anymore
I hate myself for feeling the way I do right now. They need you more then I deserve, but for too long I was a selfish brat and tried to get you to stay. It hurt everytime you brought up leaving. Nine stupid, silly FUCKING days, that drag on with each one. I don't know if I'm really mad or just secretly sadden that you left me. You call and I instantly am filled with happiness but shortly after pushing that precious button to hear the sweetness and thrill of your voice, I'm over powered with how much I am still upset that your still so far away. I can't reach out and let my finger tips touch your skin, or feel the warmth of your embrace. Tiny tears form when I read what you wrote to "tie" me over, but nothing can ever compare to you not being here. But who am I to be such a selfish, needy brat. To want to hold you back from the unknown and unaware people that you're truly helping. I miss you soo much, and I love you much more. But the uncontrollable uneasiness of my emotions is killing me. I just want you home so badly. Saturday couldn't come soon enough, until then I'll await the calls that I want so badly but dread the sound of anger I know you hear in my voice.
Been far away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I wanted
I wanted you to stay
‘Cause I needed
I need to hear you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep breathing
‘Cause I’m not leaving
Hold on to me and
never let me go
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| FYI |
[16 Jun 2006|10:44pm] |
Last Minute news
Open house
Saturday June 17th (tomorrow)
My house
5125 E. Territorial, Pleasant Lake
1-6
Bonfire afterwords and your more then welcome to crash if you want
if ya need me call the cell
812*1787
Kae
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| Stupid mosquitoes...Sweet Summer |
[08 Jun 2006|03:41pm] |
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Button~Pussycat Dolls |
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GoodOl'SummerBliss
**Dinner w/ Joe then the movie Cars <yeah I'm stoked!
**Amber and everyone else's open house's
**Having the house to myyyyyssselllfff for the weekend
**My own open house
**Camping trip with the girls and boys!
**Maybe a trip to Grand Haven
**MY 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!! OOOH FUCK YESS!!!
**UP NORTH!!!
**and whatever else this summer that is to come...
2006
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[03 Jun 2006|11:07am] |
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The Lucky One: Faith Hill |
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We graduate tomorrow...I better invest in some tissues.
'Cause you're mine it's all I need to know
The sun shines everywhere we go
So right 'cause I got you to hold every night
'Cause you're mine it's all I need to know
The sun shines everywhere we go
So right 'cause I got you to hold every night
I'm the lucky one (I'm the lucky one)
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| lying next to you makes my fingers crave your flesh |
[29 May 2006|09:21pm] |
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Makedamnsure-Tacking back sunday |
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You've got this new head filled up with smoke.
I got my veins all tangled close,
To the jukebox bars you frequent.
The safest place to hide.
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness.
You start shaking at the thought.
You are everything I want.
'Cause you are everything I'm not.
And we lay, we lay together just not,
Too close, too close. (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not,
Too close, too close.
I just wanna break you down so badly.
Well I trip over everything you say.
I just wanna break you down so badly.
In the worst way.
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| chain locked door, still creaks to open |
[25 May 2006|09:50pm] |
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Every once in awhile:Blackhawks |
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She opens her heart to an old memory
She closes her eyes and she smiles
Just ask her if she ever still
Thinks about me
She'll say "Every once in a while,
Every once in a while"
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| keep it or toss it |
[20 May 2006|11:03am] |
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Vertical Horizan |
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I think I'm going to delete this, I hardly ever write in here anymore and no one reads it or comments anymore...so i think it might just be pointless writing my thoughts,feelings and emotions for it just to be overlooked...
...who the fuck knows...
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[14 Apr 2006|02:05pm] |
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Not ready to make nice:Dixe Chicks |
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Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I’m not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I’m still waiting
I’m through with doubt
There’s nothing left for me to figure out
I’ve paid a price
And I’ll keep paying
I’m not ready to make nice
I’m not ready to back down
I’m still mad as hell and
I don’t have time to go round and round and round
It’s too late to make it right
I probably wouldn’t if I could
‘Cause I’m mad as hell
Can’t bring myself to do what it is you think I should
I know you said
Can’t you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it
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| you're one of the most annoying friends I have... |
[13 Apr 2006|05:02pm] |
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Your a lying, little piece of shit, back-stabbing, conniving, bitch... so why the hell am I friends with you? "Best" friends with you...
and the boy you want....deserves better then you're treating him
YOU'RE A F-UCKING BITCH!
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| lovely chats with ash |
[03 Apr 2006|03:54pm] |
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the computer |
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KaeMarie0688: yea bed time for ash ash
KaeMarie0688: got a stash stash in her ass ass
azilehsa: umm, i dont have weed in my crack
azilehsa: kae is a rapper!
azilehsa: what what
azilehsa: yeah, my bf doesnt sell drugs, hes a pimp
KaeMarie0688: pssh remember your drug home in the walmart parking lot
azilehsa: 10 years, i'll be there
KaeMarie0688: lol
KaeMarie0688: with your babys in recycled diapers
azilehsa: good night mrs. H
KaeMarie0688: night mrs. c will crack stashing whore
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| holding on |
[31 Mar 2006|11:00pm] |
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the light rain |
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the shadows dance across the sand like they once held the hand of someone they loved
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[22 Mar 2006|09:40pm] |
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Better buy a big purse, think i'll need a fifth to get through the night
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| Just step on me |
[22 Mar 2006|08:39pm] |
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me SCREAMING |
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"YOU DON'T WANT THE FAULT, BUT YOU WANT ALL THE CONTROL"
....and dont comment on this it'll just piss me off even more
oops sorry no one comments anyways, who was I kidding
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